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Co-Author Bre
Posted August 25, 2005 Completed Song Fiction – 3 pages
Rating R – for language
Disclaimer Not mine!
Distribution If you already archive my stories then feel free, otherwise please ask
Timeline BTVS – Season Three - Homecoming
Pairing Angel & Angelus’ Interplay
Summary After Buffy tells Angel about Scott, Angelus tries to pull him further into the darkness.
Inspired By Staind’s – Outside Breaking The Cycle, album
Author’s Note Angelus’ words are in italics.
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She walked away after breaking his heart. He stared at her retreating back wanting nothing more than to grab her and make her stay with him.
He fell to his knees his head bowed down his thoughts in turmoil.
He wanted to follow her to beg her forgiveness. Plead with her to stay and comfort him from the nightmares that blackened his dreams.
The pain inside was unbearable. He was filled with regrets, remorse and guilt, and they were all associated with her. She was everything to him. She saved him from hell. Her love brought him back there was no doubt in his mind.
He took that proof out of his pocket and looked at the charred ring a symbol of their love. Their wedding ring though, she didn’t know it, and now it seemed like the opportunity to tell her had passed. He wondered if she would even care. After all that he put her through how could she?
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you
What are you brooding about I’m the one locked away in here having to listen to you cry like a baby over that traitorous bitch. Wasn’t she the one that sent us to hell to begin with? It’s her fault we were even in hell. You know that you want to hurt her as much as I do. Punish her for what she did.
“No she saved me, she saved us!”
She sent us to HELL you idiot!
“It wasn’t her fault she was only doing her duty.”
Bah her duty! Was it her duty to pledge herself to us then torture us with thoughts of her with another man.! Be honest! I know you Liam. I see what’s inside of you, deep inside you. Whether you want to admit to or not your heart is as black as mine.
“NO she changed me.”
Bullshit! Don’t tell me that the thought of some young punk touching her doesn’t piss you off. You can’t deny that the thought of ripping him from limb to limb doesn’t fill your heart with happiness!
Angel wanted to deny the demon but he couldn’t it was true! That was exactly what he wanted to do to anyone that dare touch his mate. But he couldn’t.
“That might be true but I’m not like you I won’t do it.”
All the times That I felt like this won't end Was for you And I taste What I could never have It's from you All the times That I've tried My intentions Full of pride But I waste More time than anyone
That’s because you’re a pussy whipped asshole.
“No not pussy whipped just trying to do the right thing, trying to be human.”
Human! There is no human in you Liam. There’s only me and your cold black dead heart! I know you I know the blackness that lays there. You should take her taker her now! Bring her back her and chain her up teach her the consequences of betraying ones mate.
“No she didn’t betray me she would never betray me!”
Do you honestly believe that after everything you did to her that she still cares about what happens to you?
“You did that not me! She knows the difference.”
Does she? What do you think your precious slayer would say if she knew what you really thought? Do you think she would welcome you with open arms if she knew how you wanted to chain her to your bed and fuck her till she bleeds? Do you think she would love you more knowing how you want to drink Scott dry and hang his body out to rot?
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you
The image of a naked bleeding Buffy begging for his forgiveness filled his head and he could not deny the erotic pull of the image. To have her at his mercy, to do whatever he wanted it was a fantasy he had always had. One he always tried to deny.
He wanted her so much he could think of nothing else. His dreams were always filled with their one night together and the absolute perfection of her taste, a taste that he could never again have.
He had tried to stay away from her. He had tried to do the right thing. But her seductive pull of innocence and love was too much for him and he couldn’t stay away. He had to posses her.
Of course you did because she is ours. And now some little boy will be touching her. Some little boy will be hearing her call out his name while he pleasures her body.
“No she loves me”
Love! Fuck love! I say we kill the boy and make her watch. I know you, I see your true colors, you’re so called soul is as ugly as the death that reeks in me.
“SHUT UP LEAVE ME ALONE!” He banged his head against the wall in an effort to rid Angelus from his head. He was a weak man always was and the temptation was great to let his rage out and hurt someone, almost too great.
Until he felt a tiny prick in his hand and looked down at the ring he held on to so tightly. His salvation was her love. She would always save him doesn’t this ring proof it?
He looked deeper inside of himself, deeper then even Angelus could go, and he felt a warm light spread through his body. Her love spread through him making him smile.
All the times That I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend But I feel Tomorrow will be OK
He knew that she would be back. He knew because she couldn’t deny him anymore than he could deny her. Their love was unbreakable. Their love crossed dimensions and worlds. Their love was forever.
He pushed the demon back further until he could hear nothing inside.
He lay down on his bed and closed his eyes.
He felt only her and reached out for her and knew she would come.
He knew that tomorrow would be alright.
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you
The End
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